Losing someone is a big deal whether it's your friend, grandparents, parents, siblings.. etc. I've felt the feeling before ofcourse. It's like seeing them lifeless makes you want to hide in a hole and cry forever, knowing they will never come back. It especially hurts more when you haven't seen them in months and then you just hear that they're gone and your life goes crashing down completely.
Your heart feels crumpled and weak when you think about them and the worst part of all this is seeing them go 6-feet under the ground and be there for as long as possible. You're screaming for them in your heart and mind but nothing's ever tradable to get them back or to see them except for your life. And then again, killing yourself to see them will never ever be an excuse or the answer.
It's the patience to wait until you can really go up, when your time is done but not now. Always know they're happy and pain-free wherever they are. They are watching over you with the biggest hearts and the most care. They are proud of whatever good you've done and would secretly push you to doing more amazing things. They watch over your soul, they watch over your everything. When you do something wrong, it is okay to them, you're forgiven no matter how many times you do it because deep down they and you know you're not like that and something has just driven you to do that.
It's very okay to cry in the first few months but moving on will definitely be necessary. It's hard to let go but it's the only thing to do. Feed yourself with good thoughts of them and other things and I assure you, it will help no matter how big or small those good thoughts are. After crying all the pain away, you will feel renewed and better than those depressing times. If it doesn't work, talk to someone about it. Their help and care will help you get better and they will support you in everyway because they know why you're acting that way and they won't be rough on you. Just know that whenever you fall down on the way, everyone and anyone is here to help. No matter how small the help is, it will still contribute to your wellbeing and recovery.
Until Next Time
p.s. If you need anyone to talk to, I'm here.
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